The open letter

 Hello, 

I hope everyone has had an amazing weekend. I have no idea where mine went. 

So, this post is an open letter to someone, the person isn't named, they probably won't read this either. But I think it's something that won't really mean anything to anyone, so apologies if this post is a bit boring for you. 

Dear person, 

All I ever wanted was for you to be happy and healthy. That was important to me, nothing else. The context/capacity of it didn't matter. I understood and accepted your situation, I did nothing but try to support you.

You weren't honest and I think you possibly felt guilty. You called me a coward once (and for something that wasn't even true), but no. The only coward here is you.

I know you have some really challenging things going on, but it's not an excuse to be a shitty person. I really do genuinely wish you the best of luck though, and I hope you can overcome the challenges you were facing. As I said at the start - all I ever wanted was for you to be happy and healthy. That is still true.

BUT...

I am sitting here, 8 months later, and I'm still wondering if I ever actually knew you. 

I don't think I did at the time. But I do now, and I don't want that kind of person in my life, and I'm really glad that you no longer are. 


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