Where I am now! + A big thank you - Subathon

 Hi all, 

Hope everyone is having an amazing weekend. Those of you in the EU, I hope the heat settles down soon. And those of you in the US, Happy 4th of July! Here I am feeling sorry for myself with my heater on and snow on the mountain. 

So, a couple months ago, I was diagnosed with ADHD. Suspected by many, surprised no one. I started medication probably a month or so ago now, and I wanted to give an update on how I'm travelling. 

A lot of people have noticed this, but I seem much more motivated and productive. I am streaming most days, I'm posting clips, I'm learning lots of tech, vid, audio stuffs. I feel happier, I'm even drinking less??? So weird. Who would've thought? 

I have a lot more clarity all round. A lot of things felt harder, previously. Even a simple task was draining. Sometimes replying to peoples messages, or even reading them - that was tiring. I often thought I was lazy. I had also previously been diagnosed with depression & anxiety, and I think a lot of that has actually been alleviated. 

My head used to be quite loud, just.. A lot of thoughts, I day dreamed a lot, my train of thought drifted all over the place. Good for self reflection, I guess, but not much else. I was just always somewhere in my head. That's the best way I can put it. It's reasonably quiet now. It's an odd feeling. I liken it to being used to living on a busy high way. You just have the constant humming of cars etc. Then one day, you move somewhere and notice how quiet it is, and it feels a little weird at first. Perhaps too quiet? But then you get used to it. 

So whilst I'm somewhat wondering if the diagnosis really is accurate, I think the meds/results are actually speaking volumes.

You guys know I have been streaming a lot more consistently, putting a lot more work into the community of ours, and I see it reaping rewards. We did a birthday stream + subathon on the 27th. Firstly, you guys are crazy. Secondly... thank you so so much for allowing me to keep my eye brows. 

But more than that, thank you so much for all the support. We amassed something crazy like 88 subs during that one stream. So, to put that into perspective. Subs are $8.99 AUD per sub. You guys threw like... $800 at me in support. 

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What the actual fucking fuck. 

Thank you! And thank you for the birthday wishes too! It's going straight back into the streams! I also haven't done a giveaway for a while, so I will plan one over the next month! You guys have no idea how much you mean to me, your friendship, your support, your company. All the fun memories and moments that are being created. I can't put into words what it means. To have people who are initially strangers on the internet, befriend you, enjoy your company, and supporting you to keep going. That is truly a blessing. 

We have seen so much growth the last few weeks as well. So many new people, names. And I hope we continue to grow in the capacity that we are. 

My next blog post is going to be a little obscure, but it's an open letter to an individual. No name dropping, nothing aggressive, just something I need to get out. Probably not going to be relevant to anyone, but I need to do it for myself. I have no idea if said person will even read it, but. Anyway.

Thanks so much for reading <3 And for everything. Seriously, guys. You are wild and I love you.